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Been so Long I never showed up here, and this time I want to taLk about sumthin’ which I rareLy discuss with anyone. But it’s something important indeed.
It’s about four Letters sitting side by side. Each of them means nothing to me when they’Re standing aLone, but if they DO sitting together, they couLd mean SUMTHIN! EspeciaLLy for me. ALLright…it’s about MATH. You know Math? Mathematics.

I don’t know where to start, what if I start from the beginning? From…ummm…14 or 15 years ago? Yeah…it was my first year of attending a primary schooL.
Once upon a day in NF History. There was a time when my SchooL (NF) had just opened and some parents (who apparentLy invoLved in the founding as weLL) were registering their chiLdren into this new schooL. Amongst them, there WERE parents who decided to register their chiLdren into higher LeveLs than they’re supposed to be (Means if you shouLd be in 1st grade, in this case, you got registered as a 2nd grade student), that’s incLuding my parents. They BRILLIANTLY decided to put me in 2nd grade and my sister in 3rd grade whiLe I supposed to be in 1st and my sister supposed to be in 2nd grade.

Aaargh…to make the Long story short.
I wasn’t survived.
I was at first eagerLy enjoying the days of my first year of schooL (forget the kindergaten stuff I didn’t even remember anything except the swings and sLides, and the trampolines!), yes I was eager to study, even when aLL the students treated me very-in my language-funny because they thought I was a-haLf-monster-haLf-human-girL and none of the girLs wanted to sit with me and the boys gave me the most uncomfortabLe seat at the back of the cLass? Yes I was trying so hard to survive. But I was a ‘happy’ student UNTILL…I saw those pictures of bound sticks in my math book. Somehow I couLdn’t understand why did my stomach demonstrativeLy refused to digest such vision, why did my brain stopped working and not giving me any power to answer 1 singLe MATH ProbLem in 2nd grade…

That’s it. That’s the beginning of my diLemmatic probLem about Math for the rest of my Life.

ShaLL I continue? OK, since I saw those scary pictures, I was famousLy known as a compLeteLy non-human girL to my feLLow 2nd grade students, I was mad.
And yes you’re right, my parents decided to withdrew me from 2nd grade and re-registered me into a 1st grade student. The fact that I was suddenLy became a champion in every subject and got 1st rank at the end of the year just proved that I have a HUGE LACK of comprehension when it comes to Mathemathics deep inside my brain.

To be continued…