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Speaking about a word that you may never,
understand.
Speaking about a concept that you may never,
comprehend.

Speaking about eternity.
Speaking about forever . . .

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Further Story from the Last, stiLL about Math >>

Do you know how significant it was? To be divided from the things, the friends I dear so…It was a determination, to know I never gonna be abLe to pursue the dream of becoming expert in Chemz. It Hurt a Lot.

It sureLy isn’t sound so Lebay is it?

So, about the math, I stiLL couLdn’t comprehend. It was the Least probLem I soLved, Math was, in the SPMB Try Out sheets. OftenLy came up with no idea then I Left this section bLank. Never dare enough to take a risk of answering a singLe false-to-be question.

WeLL then I got to UI (beLieved EngLish heLped me a Lot in my SPMB answer sheet, covering the minuses or the bLanks from Math!)

The first term I study in Library Science, I Learned so many "introductory subjects", then a Lecturer mentioned sumthin about a specific subject named "BibLiometrics".
Without reaLizing that it’s sum sort of "numericaL stuff" (kata Lain dr Matematika), I began to Like it. I Listened and I got a perfect score for such a probLem amongst the other questions in the Last-quiz (nobody from the whoLe cLass guessed it right but me, such a miracLe!).
But, I never got the chance to taste this "interesting" subject to be incLuded into my Term Credits System (Sistem Kredit Semester). Not a singLe chance, untiLL this term! My 6th term of studying in coLLege, means the 3rd year.

Let us go back a moment to the 5th term, Last term. I was forced to take a subject named "Statistic: A Research Method in Library Science" Last term, and I couLdn’t heLp myseLf to cried sum drops of tears as soon as I finished the first quiz. Yaw knaw…(you know!) I COULD NOT DONE IT RIGHT. Got stumbLe upon "standard deviation" and the gank. You know…But I survived at Last. I couLdn’t care Less for that big vitamin C I received for my Last score. AfteraLL, goodbye skies of grey heLLo skies of BLue! I passed the Last semester in good shape.

So, here I am, running my Life, my beautifuL Life. I’m having a beautifuL Life ever since I sat there, the first time in my Life, having a cLass that onLy consists of 4 students, with a Guru Besar, the onLy Professor in Library Science in Indonesia, as the Lecturer. The honorabLe Lecturer he was. He dare enough to teach us (the onLy quartet) without going to be paid due to the students quota. And for your information, this is the first time in Indonesia that A subject of BIBLIOMETRICS given to reguLer students in Library Science. And I’m one of the onLy 4 heirs for this endangered-species-of-knowledge inheritance. WHOA . . .

<I don’t care how boring this passage is . . .kick off if you do.>

You know something, I deaL with numbers, I deaL with Logarithm, I deaL with Bradford MuLtipLier (bet u got no cLue, hihihi), and the most interesting part is, I’m deaLing with Zipf Law who for heaven sake had given us the formuLa to count the vaLue of Alphabet Characters. . .

Oh God, I Love this subject so much, I Love this knowLedge . . .I’m eager to know more. Hope HE wiLL give me the chance to study it even more, to understand, to impLement it, to make myseLd usefuL in terms of here and the hereafter. Remember when Our Prophet said: "The worLd is indeed accursed. Accursed everything that is in it, unLess you remember ALLah and every participating things about it, aLso those who seek for knowLedge or those who spread knowLedge"-Thirmidzi.

StiLL about a subject that’s been strangeLy meant sumthin’ to me.

OK. Then I grew up with such incomprehension. I survived.
Even though I cried a Lot in 9th grade, just because of (again) couLdn’t soLve a mathematic probLem. WeLL then, I got to Senior High schooL and my journey had begin again. I joined sum competition, I was intoxicated by "english competetion" (not because my English is amazing, but I found it hard to express myseLf thru Indonesian Limited words) ^_*

I stumbLed a Lot again, by Math. Got a private Lesson to attend every tuesday and thursday. I PLanned my concentration in Science CLass, so I gotta cope my probLem, r8? Sumhow I couLdn’t comprehend. I stiLL remember the poem I made as I struggLed upon the math test:

Matematika

Sebuah puzzLe
berukuran Raksasa
dengan kepingan-kepingan
sebesar uang logam
dua puluh lima rupiah

Then by the end of my 11th grade year, I gave up the math in me. It’s the onLy subject I got a perfect "6", the rest were more than enough to guarantee my chair in Science CLass. Even my physics score was an A "acceptabLe" (after that boost-up intensive Lesson from Mr. PrincipLe!)
So, there I was, in SociaL CLass. Given up my dear chemz-cLub!!! Just bacause of such siLLy mathematicaL score made by human.

(to be continued…)